I was diagnosed with gastrointestinal reflux, then lost 25kg and was referred for more tests. That’s what led to my pancreatic cancer diagnosis.

I remember feeling angry and sad at first, wondering how this was missed by the first specialist. But I was still optimistic.

I’m on palliative chemotherapy and pain medication now, per my doctor’s recommendation. More specifically, it's 8 rounds of chemo over 8 months, with 2 months of pain medication. I felt optimistic because I was doing something about my condition. My medical costs are covered by insurance.

The most severe side effect I’ve had was diarrhea. Because of it, I could not be very far from a toilet. I also struggled with fatigue and losing my appetite. Managing these side effects required me to take Gastro-Stop® and anti-nausea medication.

I’ve made certain arrangements and considerations for my care, including an advanced care plan and DNR. I’m looking at registering for VAD too.

I resigned from my job after finding out I had cancer.

After being diagnosed with cancer, my self-esteem/self-image took a hit. But because I’m always fatigued, my social life and relationships with loved ones suffered and that affected me the most. I didn’t spend many hours on the bed to make sure I got over this issue.

The fear of not surviving or dying worries me the most. I’m educating myself about the cancer and treatment process in order to overcome this fear.

I feel rather neutral now. I just accept the outcome.

Stay strong and be positive. Listen to doctors and take another person with you every appointment.