It began with shooting pains in my breast and fatigue. When my doctor diagnosed me, I was also informed that my 5-year survival rate was 70%.

I tried to cut back on alcohol by nearly half when I was diagnosed. I also ate a healthier diet at least three times a week.

I did some of my own research, and after listening to my doctor’s recommendations, I agreed to the following treatment plan, along with some nutritional supplements:

• Mastectomy (Removal of entire breast)
• Chemotherapy
• Radiation therapy
• Hormone therapy

Even after deciding on my treatment plan, I felt anxious, discouraged, and a bit angry and scared. I had financial concerns as my Medicaid doesn’t cover long-term hormone therapy.

I suffered from fatigue, hair loss and chemo fog because of the treatment, and I ended up relying on more alcohol and self-medicating in a bid to cope with the side effects.

It was difficult, but I continued trying to cut down my alcohol intake. I also spend more time with my children and travel more often with them.

Ultimately, I want to see my little girls happy and healthy. I hope to celebrate birthdays, and go on a trip to visit my sister in Canada. Personally, right now my biggest dream is to quit drinking and be sober. I feel so guilty because I know drinking is bad for you, especially as a cancer survivor.

The biggest fears I have are of dying or losing support from my extended family when I'm done with treatment. I became closer to my sister and the friends I made during chemo, and they helped me overcome my fears. I’m also looking for a therapist now to help with my drinking problem.

Some time has passed, but I still feel isolated and lonely after being diagnosed with cancer.

During chemo, there were so many times when I was depressed and anxious. While our lives after cancer will never be truly normal again, I hope we can all say we’re doing overall okay in the end.