The first symptom I had was blood in my stool. This was accompanied by other signs like:

• Frequent constipation
• Feeling that my bowels do not empty all the way

After a few weeks, I sought medical attention. That’s how I was diagnosed with stage 3 rectal adenocarcinoma.

I remember feeling angry, fearful, sad and surprised at the news. I was shocked as I was so young. I was scared that I would die and leave my kids without a mom. I was so sad that I had to go through all the treatments.

Having done my own research and taking my doctor’s recommendation into account, I underwent a proctocolectomy (removal of colon and rectum), APR surgery, chemotherapy, radiation therapy and alternative treatments such as mistletoe IV therapy and high dose vitamin C. I felt optimistic. I felt so much better when the docs made a plan with their team and said their intention was curative. I felt like I was prepared for my treatment and did not experience anything unexpected.

First it was chemotherapy, followed by chemoradiation, followed by low anterior resection with a loop ileostomy. Then I had a reversal. The cancer recurred so I needed APR with a VRAM flap. In total I had:

• 4 rounds of chemo over 4 months
• 25 sessions of radiotherapy over a month
• 3 surgeries spanning 15 months

Now I have a permanent stool bag. Having this attachment did affect me in some ways; it altered my body image and led to reduced physical intimacy.

In terms of financing treatment, I am covering the treatment costs myself with the help of insurance. I was declared cancer-free in February 2025.

The most severe side effect I had was peripheral neuropathy. I could barely walk; the pain in my feet was so bad. It caused me to not get my last chemo treatment. I also struggled with appetite loss and fatigue.

To manage these side effects, I exercised more, took prescribed medication and went for acupuncture.

I plan to go back to work and to take family trips.

The biggest challenge I’ve experienced since being diagnosed with cancer had to do with my professional life. I had to stop working for a while, causing me to lose my status. I grieved it with my union but my employer still would not give me my status back.

Surviving cancer has come with its own set of challenges, including:

• Emotional or psychological impact (e.g., anxiety, depression, PTSD)
• Changes in body image or appearance
• Ongoing medical care or check-ups
• Fear of recurrence

I’ve coped with them through therapy. I’m taking it one day at a time and still planning for my future.

Since my cancer diagnosis, I’ve been most worried about:

• Fear of the cancer returning (recurrence)
• Fear of not surviving or dying
• Fear of undergoing treatment (e.g., side effects, pain)
• Fear of not being able to continue with normal life or activities
• Fear of the impact on family or relationships

Trying to overcome these fears has meant:

• Seeking support from family or friends
• Speaking to a therapist or counselor
• Engaging in mindfulness or relaxation techniques (e.g., meditation, yoga)
• Focusing on physical recovery and staying active
• Educating myself about the cancer and treatment process
• Joining a support group or connecting with other cancer survivors
• Engaging in spiritual or religious practices
• Focusing on positive thinking or gratitude

I’m still fearful today. I am so terrified the cancer will come back. But that fear of recurrence is very normal. Everyone goes through it.

You are stronger than cancer and you are stronger than you realize. Surround yourself with your loved ones and accept their help. That is what they are there for. Your only job right now is to heal and focus on that and yourself.

Exercise, get outside for fresh air, eat well but don’t get too worried about it.