After experiencing constipation for a few weeks, I sought medical attention and was subsequently diagnosed with stage 4 colorectal cancer. Further tests revealed that my liver and lungs were also affected by cancer.

When I was first told I had cancer, I was sad. During the initial consultation with my original GP, cancer was not considered as a possibility.

I decided on my treatment plan according to my doctor’s recommendation, opting for:

• Robotic surgery
• Liver resection
• Chemotherapy
• Targeted therapy

I had robotic surgery in August 2021, followed by liver resection in December 2022, during which my gall bladder was removed as well. Overall, the surgeries I had spanned over a period of 16 months. Subsequently, I participated in a SABR trial for lung cancer in September 2024. I also had 8 rounds of chemotherapy over a span of 6 months and 8 rounds of targeted therapy for less than a month. Eventually, I stopped active treatment and my treatment just involves monitoring my condition now. However, I felt angry as I had to question my treatment at several junctions.

Fortunately, my medical costs were covered by the NHS. However, I noticed that there was no specific support despite the charities, etc. It all came down to the individual. This was in part due to underfunding in the NHS.

Side effects of my treatment include peripheral neuropathy, weight fluctuations, hand and foot syndrome and fatigue. In particular, the neuropathy in my feet and hands affected my walking and cooking. I tried to manage these side effects through reflexology.

I have started to clear out my house, including my clothes and other belongings.

I continued working even after I was diagnosed with cancer as I needed the income to support myself and my loved ones.

My self-esteem/self-image and social life and relationships with loved ones took a hit after my cancer diagnosis. Although it wasn’t easy, I came to accept that these changes were not the most important issue.

Following my diagnosis, I was confronted with fears I had never expected. These include:

• Fear of the cancer returning (recurrence)
• Fear of not surviving or dying
• Fear of losing independence or ability to care for myself

I tried to overcome these fears by speaking to a therapist or counselor and focusing on positive thinking or gratitude.

Even after some time, I still feel fearful and confused. I do not feel well-informed about my diagnosis.

Each individual’s journey is unique, so don't compare yourself with others. Don't be afraid to ask questions and change plans.

Have a support bag for chemo — a little drink, some warm clothing, either a book or game to pass time as it is a long process.